The Fight with Weight Gain

My fight with my weight gain is back on and this time I want to fight back the right way. Normally when the doctors increase my insulin to control my blood sugars and I see myself gaining weight, I decrease my insulin. I don't like when I wake up in the morning and I can not fit the clothes I could wear just last week. I don't like when I take a picture like this and I see the weight gain in my face. I want to find a gym to join so I can start working out again. I find that Houston is not good for me and my weight because I am very inactive here. Everytime I have lived in California I have managed my weight because I stay active because the weather is good and I don't like staying in the house. I was able to do it in New Jersey/New York because I walked everywhere and there was always something to do. The weather in up north was bad in the weather but the spring and summer was nice. In Houston , all you want to do is stay in the air condition somewhere because it is too hot to be outside. I hate the rain and it rains alot here. I have to come to a happy medium since I am here for at least two more years. I will start looking for a gym this weekend. I am looking at 24 hour fitness and LA fitness. I tried Bally's and everytime I have tried to schedule before time they always screw me up. I just to go to the YMCA downtown when I lived here before but I don't work downtown anymore. I want something that I have to pass by everyday going home and that is not too far when I am home and want to go. I want to get back to 140 or 150 because now I feel I am over 200 and I don't like the feeling. I have to break this thing I have of not wanting to do things alone because I have been waiting on other ppl to have free time or want to do things but everyone has there own life. I will pray on this because this is something I have to do for myself.

I talked to my sister the other day but I have not talk to my brother at home. He is never there when I call but my sister said he is doing okay. I need to call my big brother to check on him today. Well it is time for me to get to work and make some money.

Don't like the fat feeling...I have to change this quickly without going against the doctor. I wish I could quality for the lapband procedure. I am going to go to a seminar to see what they can do with my insurance.