Sometimes I have to refocus and realize why I make the choices I make in my personal life. They are just that for me. I was married for 15 years so I know the time and dedication it takes to make a great relationship work. Right now with me trying to complete my degree and get my company stable and master this management position I really dont have the time to focus on a relationship. Do I miss spending time and hanging out with someone ? Yes I do. Do I miss waking up in the middle of the night and looking next to me and seeing someone next to me? Yes I do. Do I miss laughing and talking to someone who is only interested in making me happy no matter what it takes? Yes I do. Do I miss having someone to come to every night? Yes I do.
Put right now , I have to focus on me. I have to finally finish what I started. I can't be concern about what someone else wants when it comes to my life. I cant be concern if they dont like the decisions I am making to make myself a better person. I work full-time and go to school fulltime and still run my company.
I dont have time to be put in a position to choose between doing my homework and studying or spending time with someone. I can't be out in the street late nights when i only get 4 hours a sleep already. The person that will love me will give me this space and time I need right now to focus on me. They wont interfere in me becoming a better person.
This year is about taking control of my life and completing my goals and dreams so I can be a better me for the husband God has waiting for me.
I made it through my first week of requirements. I went to my seminar and got my bluebook. Made my appointment for my psychological evaluation, starting my 6 months supervised diet plan, started Get Healthy Challenge with my Co-workers. I have to start making time for exercise. I started my process weight in at 200 pounds. My goal is 125.
This year is about regaining my life back from the beginning. Not starting near the end but a true restart. Everything around me has to change. My mental,emotional,physical,financial and spiritual. #totaltransformation
#stayingfocus #gethealthy
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