Wednesday, November 15, 2017
Tuesday, November 14, 2017
Full of Surprises
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
This year has been very interesting. I got a new job and the stress of the last job is gone. This job gave the title and money I wanted but they screwed up so many other things in the process. I have a new friend in my job and he is alot like Ronnie. Yes , another Taurus. We work well together and that helps. I found out that I have a fatty liver so I have been having a problem losing weight. I just don't have the energy. Reg and I are in a good space and our friendship is back on track. My bestfriend Ronnie is getting married in 19 days. My son is graduating next month and I start my last two classes on 5/22. I got hit by a 18 wheeler and total my Land Rover and now I have a nice shiny black BMW X5.with a carnote. I will update you more later but for now I have to go do some work!!!
PS. Don't know where I stand on the Love and Relationship thing for now but I guess one day I will know.
Tuesday, December 27, 2016
Thursday, February 4, 2016
We started HCG again and I am happy about that happening. It is better when he does it with me because that means I am not tempted to eat bad. I started at 214 and today I am 211.7 . 2.3 total weigh lost and 1.7 was fat. That ending I was talking about didnt end up being a ending. I can't let go.
Monday, January 18, 2016
I have experienced many endings in my life and like all endings you try to prepare for them. Yesterday I had another ending after 9 years and it feels like the ending of July 2004. It was not as bad as the ending in 2009 but I promised myself I would never allow myself to feel hurt like that again. In 2015, I finally let someone new into my life and realized the things I was missing in my life. I had learn to put distance between me and the person I was involved with since the bad relationship that ended in 2005. Everything since then has been on my terms. I avoided spending too much time with anyone.
There was one that brought down my walls but he could never make it to the other side of road of being in a publicly commited relationship.We shared many things couple shared and the chemistry between us was amazing but I wanted it all and if he did he could never admit it.
For me to move forward in my life, I have to let go completely. I learned alot in 2015 about myself and what I want and expect. I have to stop holding on to someone that is not holding on to me. I have to look out for myself and stop holding on to ppl not looking out for me. I don't think I will ever stop loving him but I will just take the memories smile and give the new opportunities a chance. I was always told a man knows what he wants and it doesn't take years for him to know.
2016 is about a mutual loving relationship that ends at the alter. It is time for me to have it all.
Saturday, January 9, 2016
On Jan 2nd I wrote a blog about wanting it all and Jan. 8th 2016 I have been offered everything I ask for in that blog. Scary isn't it. I guess you should be careful for what you ask God for because he will give it to you.
My bestfriend told me I had three options. She did not like my past, she was a fan of the present but she felt I should try something new.
Two readers gave me a chart that told me big changes were going to happen to me, they saw marriage in my future, something was going to happen that was going to be emotional. They have been right each time. Tomorrow is not guaranteed and I was always told it doesnt take a man forever to know that he wants to be with you.
People show themselves everyday and when they tell you who they are then you should believe them. I took a leap of faith 24 years ago and it lasted 15 years. If I do it again maybe this will last until I close my eyes. I have watched Marriage at first sight and I don't want to do that but I did say I wanted to be loved the way my ex-husband loved me. My ex-husband did the same thing because he said he knew the first time he saw me..
I believe in God and the first thing I was told was "I am a God fearing man". I wasn't evenly yoke before and I ask God for a God fearing man. I ask God for someone who would put me first. I ask God for someone who would do anything to make me happy. I ask God for the man that wanted a future with me and not something temporary. I ask God for the person who love family, would travel the world with me, be my friend , my husband and my lover. I ask God for someone I didn't mind looking at you know come on not bad on the eyes. Someone who shared my love for football, music, cooking, and the things I love to do, someone business-minded like me. Someone not afraid of work like me.
I woke up and look at the calendar and October 1st was the date I look at on the calendar.