Wednesday, November 15, 2017
Tuesday, November 14, 2017
Full of Surprises
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
This year has been very interesting. I got a new job and the stress of the last job is gone. This job gave the title and money I wanted but they screwed up so many other things in the process. I have a new friend in my job and he is alot like Ronnie. Yes , another Taurus. We work well together and that helps. I found out that I have a fatty liver so I have been having a problem losing weight. I just don't have the energy. Reg and I are in a good space and our friendship is back on track. My bestfriend Ronnie is getting married in 19 days. My son is graduating next month and I start my last two classes on 5/22. I got hit by a 18 wheeler and total my Land Rover and now I have a nice shiny black BMW X5.with a carnote. I will update you more later but for now I have to go do some work!!!
PS. Don't know where I stand on the Love and Relationship thing for now but I guess one day I will know.
Tuesday, December 27, 2016
Thursday, February 4, 2016
We started HCG again and I am happy about that happening. It is better when he does it with me because that means I am not tempted to eat bad. I started at 214 and today I am 211.7 . 2.3 total weigh lost and 1.7 was fat. That ending I was talking about didnt end up being a ending. I can't let go.
Monday, January 18, 2016
I have experienced many endings in my life and like all endings you try to prepare for them. Yesterday I had another ending after 9 years and it feels like the ending of July 2004. It was not as bad as the ending in 2009 but I promised myself I would never allow myself to feel hurt like that again. In 2015, I finally let someone new into my life and realized the things I was missing in my life. I had learn to put distance between me and the person I was involved with since the bad relationship that ended in 2005. Everything since then has been on my terms. I avoided spending too much time with anyone.
There was one that brought down my walls but he could never make it to the other side of road of being in a publicly commited relationship.We shared many things couple shared and the chemistry between us was amazing but I wanted it all and if he did he could never admit it.
For me to move forward in my life, I have to let go completely. I learned alot in 2015 about myself and what I want and expect. I have to stop holding on to someone that is not holding on to me. I have to look out for myself and stop holding on to ppl not looking out for me. I don't think I will ever stop loving him but I will just take the memories smile and give the new opportunities a chance. I was always told a man knows what he wants and it doesn't take years for him to know.
2016 is about a mutual loving relationship that ends at the alter. It is time for me to have it all.